The singer, 34, who performed to sold-out crowds at London’s Hyde Park yesterday and on Friday – her first public UK gigs in five years – also revealed the “brutal” response to her decision left her a shell of an individual.
Adele cancelled her highly anticipated gigs at Caesar’s Palace just 24 hours before she was attributable to perform her first show there in January, claiming the production was not ready.
The Someone Like You hit-maker has faced a backlash at having to date didn’t reschedule the shows, with some accusing her of “diva-like” behaviour.
On Radio 4’s Desert Island Discs, Adele told host Lauren Laverne: “I definitely felt everyone’s disappointment and I used to be devastated.
“I used to be frightened about letting them down. I believed I could pull it together and make it work, and I couldn’t. And I stand by that call.
“I don’t think some other artist would have done what I did and that’s why it was such an enormous story. You possibly can’t buy me.”
But she also hit back at those that have questioned the lack of know-how in regards to the rescheduled shows, telling them: “In fact I’m working on it!
“I’m not going to update you if I ain’t got nothing to update you with, because that just results in more disappointment. Perhaps my silence has been deadly, I don’t know.”
Describing the impact the Vegas episode had on her, she said: “It was horrible. I used to be a shell of an individual for a few months.
“I just had to attend it out and just grieve it, I suppose. Just grieve the shows and recover from the guilt. However it was brutal.”
She also discussed her notable weight reduction, saying her new-found passion for exercising has helped her cope with chronic anxiety.
Nevertheless, she said she regrets how a few of her fans responded to the change, saying: “A few of the ones I saw were young, they were like 15, and there have been another individuals who felt very betrayed by me, being like “oh, she’s given in to the pressure of it” which didn’t really hassle me because (they) ain’t holding my hand at night at 4am once I’m crying my heart out with anxiety and needing a distraction.”
The mum-of-one also revealed her partner, American sports agent Wealthy Paul, 40, has helped her grow to be less reclusive, explaining: “He’s like, “If you need to go to that restaurant, it is best to go and if you need to go to this celebration, it is best to go”.”
